I announced last week that I was thinking of writing my blog again and had not thought much of it until today. I honestly just sat down and started playing around with the theme, the colours and my profile and as I started to actually write I saw that it has been 4 years. WOW. As I was flicking through my blog, I saw that I had something like 500 viewers. I did not even realise many people were even interested in what I had to say. It spured me on to share with you my experiences of all the many hats that I wear. I have lots of hats; A mum to 2 boys with different dads, this comes with 2 separate hats that sometimes have to go together, a step mum hat , a wife hat, a student hat, a business owner and sometimes I manage to get time in for friends hat ;) I am not a writer or particularly good at grammar or spelling.... I am sorry if my writing offends the grammar police ;) So why have I decided to write again? My mum reminded me of the small blog I started in 2013 and so I r
I have had quite a few of you asking me, when is my next post. I have been wrapped up in my own little bubble, it's really quite nice in here. On a serious note. Writing down my past feelings brought back a lot of emotions and memories, some of which I had forgotten. I have needed to deal with this in my own way. Writing this blog started my journey to true recovery. I decided to get rid of plastering up my emotions with antidepressants, no partying the nights away, no stupid training regime and no 'starving' myself or bingeing on chocolate.... These are my usual tricks to ignore the pain inside. I have decided to feel my pain and let it burn. If I do not feel the pain, how will it go away? It wont, it will stay forever. All that pain will eat away inside, without me even realising. One day it will show its ugly head in the form of a bitter, twisted, single mum who hates men (and women) and will just be sad. I certainly do not want to be that person. I want to stay me.